I AM GOING TO SEE MICHAEL BUBLE IN SEPTEMBER!!!! OHHH YEAH. DUDE. DUDE. WHAT EVEN YO.
this was the first (white and near close in general) baby daddy I had. It was 2005… ahhh.
I would be jumping up and down and flailing if I could, but alas I cannot.
Living with integrity means: Not settling for less than what you know you deserve in your relationships. Asking for what you want and need from others. Speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension. Behaving in ways that are in harmony with your personal values. Making choices based on what you believe, and not what others believe.
I did all this, and this is only the first night of my non weight baring three weeks.
I’m not sure this whole “HI GUYS!!!! -waves excessively-” thing will last.
But I do know one thing, lord help us all.
God I am so sorry about what is going to pop up on your dashes soon.
Really. But I had a impulse and acted on it.
You can decide whether or not, that’s a good or bad thing.
If some of you unfollow me I completely understand. But it had to happen.
more might come.
I have comes to (better) terms with the fact I am going back to school this fall. It’s helped that I am now looking up different classes I can possibly register for when I have orientation/registration on June 11th. Looking at the different opportunities that the school offers is now not filling me with dread. Progress not perfection.
Also, I am starting to become honest with myself again (in some parts of my life at least). At this point, that really hasn’t helped my clarity in terms of my life or my future, but it is a good thing in general.
As for my recovery, I don’t know if I’m getting worse because my sarcasm is sometimes a little too far more often, or if I’m just being myself more (because quite honestly I’m a dick).
I think the chaotic deranged mess of my brain right now is due to the fact I’m good. Emotionally I’m good. I mean I’m moody and stressed but overall, at least right in this moment, I feel good. And thinking back the ADHD of a brain I have seems to coincide with times where I’ve felt like that.
I am finally off work, and I finally have a moment to myself to get my thoughts semi linear. -snorts-
and finally, yes I did re-fuck up my foot. (aka aggravated my tendon that has been torn and had severe tendonitis) So my new accessory for the next four weeks is a lovely aircast.
Sometimes I just should not be allowed to interact with society.
Today is one of those days.
I can’t communicate coherently, and when I do communicate it comes out …well not the way I meant it to. In my head.
I feel like my head has just to much shit in it that it cannot take anything new in, or help get any of the old out, or really function in general.
I just want to put a tap into my brain and let all the shit just flow out.